Susan 1year later

Subject: Susan 1year later Sat Nov 01, 2008 2:18 pm

Well, it's been more than a year since we lost our Susan. They say time heals all wounds, but I wonder how much time has to go by. There isn't a day that has gone by that I haven't thought about her, cried or raged at the injustice of what has happened. The taking of someone so vital and young that didn't have to happen. I thought as time went by, I would begin to feel better or fiind some closure, but that hasn't happened yet. I'll be driving home from work and a song will come on the radio, either by someone Susan liked to listen to, or just a song with the words that make me think of all that's happened and I cry like it's the first time I learned of her death.
The thing I'd like to get off my chest is the reason that Susan died so young and horribly.. Her doctor.. She trusted him and went to him with a lump in her breast. Now, her doctor knew that cancer ran in her family, it had killed her Mom, and her brother Billy. So, for a patient to come to you with a lump in her breast, and knowing that cancer ran in her family,, wouldn't you,, I don't know,, take a biopsy???? I'm no doctor, but I'm pretty sure I would have done that..A simple needle aspiration that would have taken minutes, could have saved her life.. Instead, what did her doctor do??? Told her and actually wrote in her chart, that her lump wasn't cancerous....Now, you ask yourself,, how could he possibly know that without seeing what is inside?? I guess maybe he was feeling Godlike on that day.. and told her she did not have cancer.. So as a result of that astute diagnosis, Sue and Budd were ecstatic that day thinking she did not have cancer.. When they found out that she actually did have it,, a year later, it was already at Stage 3.
Still, Susan fought a brave and valiant battle with this horrible disease. She was forced to endure numerous chemo and radiation therapy, copious amounts of medication and unimaginable pain. My brother had to go from he and Sue having a glorious life, to she getting weaker and weaker and in more and more pain, and he having to become the caretaker. Finally, 3+ years later, having to say goodbye to his wife, his lover, his best friend.... his life..
If anyone out there ever reads my rant, please please please,, don't ever be afraid to get a second opinion from another physician.. They are not god.. they are human beings just like us who make mistakes, However,, THIS WAS NOT A MISTAKE, THIS WAS NEGLIGENCE. This was Dr. Salk from Caring for Women being God on that fateful day and pronouncing Susan Auger cancer free, when in fact the disease was killing her from the inside out..... Do not ever go to the facility, Caring for Women. They obviously do not live up to their name. They should have a Not in front of the name, but I digress. I just wanted to get all of this off my chest because it's been festering there for over a year. We love you Susan and miss and think about you every single day....