Today is April 29th. Almost 2 years since Susan has passed away. It seems to be getting a little better. Dealing with Susan's death. It's still unbearably sad to think about, and there are days where a certain song will make me think of her and cry. Or think of the times the four of us, Budd, Sue, me and my husband Armand would go out to a club.. but for the most part, I can handle it now. My brother Budd is doing better also. He still goes to her grave everyday to talk over whatever problems he might have, or just to tell her how much he loves her, but he seems to be on the road to accepting what cannot be changed and forging a new life. I hope it just keeps getting easier to accept. I'm sure it will though, and it helps to think that she is with good people now like her Mom, her brother Billy, and my Mom.